Friday, October 19, 2007

WOW! just got back last night from the trip around the southwest. i'm in love...with LiFe! and with the Navajo country around Monument Valley. how fast can i get back there?? we'll see. it was all so beautiful, and painful at times to pass through so quickly. Jean-Paul took me on an amazing whirlwind tour that really gave me a taste of longing for more...the open expanse into...everywhere. but here i am again, barely able to write. sleepy. full day. got to sing with Amy Therrian tonight- she is such an angel, goddess, gorgeous woman, sister. the music we make, she makes, i make, is ecstacy. i record with Dvorah next friday and then...? to Navajo country? we'll see. there is DEFINITELY a song there, new, ready for me to learn. who AM i??

my laptop finally blew it, so no way to download my photos to share just yet. anyway, if i get out into the out i won't have much use anyway. hard sayin' not knowin'. it is just wild to follow this feeling...well, to get ready to follow this feeling. it's all laying out beautifully.

human interaction- tell the truth- it's never easy, except when it is! what is expectation? what is right to receive? when is it time to give. does anyone ever really give without expecting something in return. am i naive to take people at their word? life really is a gift.

i think i babble now. goodnight lovely.

me

Monday, October 8, 2007

wow. so much is reeling around right now. just went with Paolina to see "Into the Wild". could definitely relate to the desire to get outside the machine, outside the pain, outside the human creation, into the wild, into the beauty, into the sensation of being alive and part of nature. been challenged with ideas of how far "out there" we are going. we...yea, me, myself and i- you got it. anyway, this played with some of that. he really went for it though. i feel like i'm just playing the kids version of what chris did.

OK, so the goods. saturday night got to hear the Rishi sing. whoa. now that's real power. yup, he contained and expanded all of us inside of about a minute of opening his voice to sing. good stuff. had a delightful dinner with Paolina and Amy and Michelle and Sean. everyone's just so cool. Sean was wearing a cool Zi-on t-shirt (i eventually figured out that's what it said) and they said they'd just been on a little
southwest tour. i said i would like to
go, have wanted to for a while. Pia said she did a 5 day whirlwind trip. amy and i had both just passed it on our way to... so then today i got
invited, and accepted invitation to travel with 35 french tourist on a bus with John-Paul leading
and Maggie driving the bus to (drumroll) Zion, Bryce, Grand Canyon, Monument Valley, and back up to SF bay area. what a hoot. heck Yea i'm going!!

still not much up for writing these days...a bit lacklustre there. and can't get pics on just yet. soon. so may or may not write much from the road. love you loads!! kiki

Thursday, October 4, 2007

on becoming one with the west


saddened by the empty room, she stares at the gifts for one who would not come. she had not called for a lover, only one who is true.

as she closes the door behind, she breathes deeply, knowing she will not return. a soft smile quietly crawls out from her heart and settles onto her lips as she looks ahead at this autumn path, scattered with fallen leaves and colours that speak of the delicious darkness soon to come in the wake of these shortening days.

her new song is calling and she remembers. the birds and trees and rivers, the mountains and oceans, deserts and all Earth's creature friends sing with her as she walks on. her song grows and grows, reaching its TRUTH, until all that can be seen are the wings of a great, warm, glowing starlight of a once-was-a-girl fading into the setting sun.

peace